An Update on my Writing

I have a few novels on submission and while I wait, of course the best thing to do is write. And that’s what I’ve been doing and I’m pretty proud of myself that I got up to 22K in my word count. I’ve always been a pantser and write whatever comes to mind. Usually I’m thinking one scene ahead. I have an idea about the ending, but it’s still unclear as to how it’s going to go down.

I keep telling myself I will outline, but for me, it’s better to just keep writing. I’m realizing when I hit a wall something is wrong and I have to go back. And I do. Sometimes I work on something completely different. I think that also helps get the ideas going again.

It’s a YA horror novel and right now, it’s really suspenseful. I’m trying to hold that suspense up, slowly taking it to a higher level of intensity. It’s proving to be difficult, but it’s fun and I like what I have so far. It definitely gets your mind off of the submission wait time.

I’m excited to see where this one goes. And of course I am hopeful it will one day see the light and get published. It’s a dream to have all my work published. But even if I could have just one really good one out of the bunch, I would be very happy with that too.

So I guess what I’m trying to say is keep working on the dream. It will never die as long as you keep it alive and going. Perseverance really is key.

Find Time to Write

It’s funny, sometimes when your life becomes hectic, it’s a good time to write. Honestly, what’s happening right now in my life is a whirlwind of things. Today my son is going to Italy to study abroad. And tomorrow is my daughter’s nineteenth birthday. It’s been chaotic around the house with my son packing and my daughter going to school and work. I am so very proud of them both.

I was finally able to pull myself away from my last novel , which is completed and I am querying agents at the moment. But after researching and submitting and all that jazz, things die down and eventually you have to pick up writing again while you wait on submission. The wait time can be excruciating so putting yourself back into a novel is always a good thing. It will help you get your mind off of your latest novel. Also if you find yourself very busy too, with life in general, working and paying the bills and being with your kids or just doing other things, you can still find time to write. I know that was a long sentence wasn’t it? But the point I’m trying to make, is make time for writing too. Lately, I’ve been getting up early, before everyone wakes up and write as the darkness of day turns into light. Or you can maybe write during twilight times? Or maybe your lunch break. Find the time. It’s so rewarding to get so much out of your mind when you do.

I know it’s easier said than done. But once you get into the habit of it, you will find a good rhythm for yourself and the writing will come easy. Even if the writing is not your very best, try to continue writing anyway. And whatever you do, try not to linger on every word and sentence. This will drag your writing down and may stall you completely. If you can just get the bones of writing down on paper, you are way ahead of the game. I know writer’s block can be a problem for a lot of people, myself included. But there are lots of ways to kick-start your writing again. The key is writing every day and with some discipline along the way too.

So instead of putting it off, find time to write— even if it’s just 10 minutes a day. In time, you will have something special. 

My Experience as a Writer

I had a journal in high school. It was passionate with emotion on my budding relationship with my husband. We started dating really young. Well, during one of our breakups, I torched the journal. Bad decision. I would have loved reading it now.

I really didn’t choose writing. Writing chose me. I was diagnosed Bipolar in 2004 and my therapist suggested it. I started out small, writing a poem here and there, but my love for writing quickly grew. I stayed in the poetry world for years and felt so comfy and safe there. I had dozens of poems accepted over the years. I was addicted to getting accepted. I felt like a piece of my mind was being accepted into the world. Like my thoughts, sometimes, were worth something. Something meaningful.

Anyway, after the acceptances poured in, it was getting to be every poem I submitted, I wasn’t being challenged anymore.

I got this really cool thing in the mail. I don’t know how I got it, but it was information on how to enroll in the Institute of Children’s Literature. I was so excited; I took the aptitude test and passed right away. I signed up and took the class. It was very hands on. They would provide a writing lesson and I was to hand it in, by mail. They would send them back all marked up with tons of feedback. It was extremely rewarding. Very challenging, to say the least, but I followed through and got my certificate and college credits. July of 2009 I received my certificate. One of my stories became a published book.

So I was in the children’s writing phase for a while, writing picture book stories, but nothing really panned out. I was writing adult short stories too. I was going back and forth. Some of my adult short stories got published too. But I found that writing short stories wasn’t cutting it for me either. I was having a hard time getting them accepted. I was frustrated, beyond frustrated. So I kept testing my voice, between adult stories and children’s stories and that’s when I started writing YA, without me even knowing it. I’ve never gotten this much praise on any of my other writing as I did with YA. I nestled into YA very easily. I even had an agent in the very beginning and that book was ultimately published too.

I worked my way up from very small, tiny, tiny poetry, to writing novels. My writing has flourished over the years. Today it is the ultimate challenge for me. Dear God, climbing the publishing ladder is nearly impossible it seems. But so help me, God, I am going to do it, and keep doing it. My mind just won’t let me give up. I’ve prayed so hard to let go of writing, but it’s basically impossible for me. Again, I have the Bipolar disorder so, with my mental illness, I need to write. Whether I get published or not, I must write on.

So whatever you do, don’t let yourself give up. Believe in the fact that if you absolutely adore the written word, giving up writing is not an option. And just know that starting out small is perfectly okay. Going from not writing at all to writing a novel is a giant leap. Some people can do it. Some people get their books accepted by big publishers right away. I’m glad I worked my way up. It would be extremely hard to top a book you published by a big publisher right away. But again, some people can do it. I’m thankful of my experience with writing. I wouldn’t want to have it any other way.

In Between Novels

So you finished your novel! That’s great news! Congratulations! It can be a great joy to finish. There’s also this sadness too, for me at least. If you’ve written a novel and finished and edited and polished and have it out on submission, now what do you do? The best thing to do is write another novel while you’re waiting. But that can be extremely difficult. You might still be attached to your last novel. Or you might not have ideas to write a new one. Whatever the case, it sucks, I know, because that’s where I’m at right now. But there are many other things you can do in the meantime

You can write in your blog or research agents and or publishers. Don’t just wait around for responses. It will do you no good. I know this because it happens to me all the time. I have to force myself to do other things. And when I do, naturally I feel better.

I think the biggest problem I have is not having a clear direction. When you don’t have an agent or editor cheering you on or asking for rewrites or telling you what direction to go in, you have to direct yourself. When you’re a writer, there are a lot of things you have to do on your own. It can be really lonely. But it can also be very rewarding too.

So let’s talk more about the things you can do in between your novels. Again, as I said, you can update your blog. You can research agents and publishers. You can switch gears in your writing and write a different genre or category—from adult to young adult and so on. Another big part of being a writer is reading. You can take this time and catch up on reading a novel or two, or several. Go at the pace you are most comfortable at doing. Writing in a journal and writing short stories and poems is also another great avenue to try. Just remember if you write a short story or poem, you can submit it to magazines and possibly promote your platform that way too.

Just because you might not be writing at the moment, doesn’t mean you’re not a writer. There are plenty other writerly things you can do. And when you are ready to start the next novel, you’ll not only have another finished novel on your hands, you’ll have another novel to query with—in case the previous one doesn’t work out. Sometimes it takes several novels to get that deal you’ve been dreaming of. Even when you want to quit, DON’T! Just keep trying. If you keep trying, you’re bound to succeed. 

Living with a Mental Illness: Part 2

There’s an older black woman that comes to the library like I do. She sits at the computer, shuffles some papers around and talks to herself. Loudly. Her hair is kind of raggedy and her clothes are worn with holes. I feel for her. I think to myself, if I wasn’t on medication, I would be like her.

When I’m off of my medication things start to get weird. My ticks start to take over. I am talking to myself, loudly. I’m having full blown conversations that are all going nowhere. I can’t decide on anything so I’m moving back and forth and stopping and forgetting and thinking about something else. I’m all mixed up basically.

It feels like a dream, where you’re going around, doing what you’re doing and not even thinking about doing it. It just happens. You’re not even wondering why you did that. You’re just watching everything as it unfolds. Trapped in your head. I have dreams every night and they’re all weird. But when you’re doing something in manic mode, it all feels like a dream, till you wake up and find that it’s your reality. It’s a part of you now, a part of your life and what you experienced. You can’t wipe it away like it was a dream. You try your hardest to forget, but the more you want to forget, the more you remember. At first it comes in bits and pieces, out of order until you have a clear vision of what you did, like running into cars half naked or crashing your car into another car. Thank God in my case everyone was all right. But it didn’t have to happen. There were warning signs. I felt unsafe, unsure in a surreal thought pattern. I was rushed to take the kids to school and I dropped them off safely and then I broke into full manic mode. I remember the air bag slamming into my chest. I remember getting out and picking up the fragments of the crash and cursing God in the middle of the street.

I could go on and on about it, but that was years ago and everything, luckily turned out okay in the end. It’s still a part of my past that I try desperately to forgive myself of and move on, but it’s extremely difficult. It’s even more difficult when you have several bipolar episodes buried down deep that all take turns dwelling about. I was diagnosed in 2004, so 11 years of this still going strong.

The writing helps immensely. That’s why, even if I don’t have anything being published at the time, I still write. It keeps my mind busy and that’s always a good thing. I’d hate to be in that position like the lady from the library is in. Maybe she can’t afford medication. She keeps to herself and is pretty mobile. I see her on the bus sometimes too. So she gets around. I don’t know her full story, but I’m just relating to her issues. I could very much be the same way and I understand what she is going through.

Some people glare and are bothered by her. The librarians are sweet, they never say anything to her unless someone complains.

Anyway, my point is it sucks. Even on medication, I still struggle. Not as much but I do have bouts of self- talk that won’t seem to go away. I’ll be arguing with myself silently in my mind as I walk somewhere till I literarily say “Stop Mama!” It works only briefly then I go back to it. Again the writing and the reading do help. And keeping busy with the kids and the house. I have such wonderful support from my family. If it wasn’t for them, I’d be lost.

So the next time you see someone talking to their self, have some empathy for them. Some things are beyond our control.

Hodderscape Open to Submissions!

Hodderscape is open to submissions, now through the 16th of this month. They are a UK publisher looking for science fiction, fantasy and horror.


You can check out more info here. Good Luck and happy submitting!

Update on YA Publishers

Here's a few more YA Publishers that you can add to your list when you are ready to submit.


Penner Publishing (pays advances)
Clean Teen Publishing
Finch Books (and imprint of Totally Bound Publishing)
Ruets
Evernight Teen


As far as I know, these publishers check out okay on Absolute Write
Be sure to check for any updates. Good Luck and Happy Submitting!