Tuesday, September 27, 2016

Writing and God

I went to Catholic school 1st through 8th grade, so maybe that’s why I’m so into God. I don’t go to church every day, maybe on holidays, but that’s it. But I sure do talk to God a ton every single day. And honestly through everything that has happened in my life, I am truly thankful.

I never had it easy. I was a poor reader early on and then later in 7th and 8th grade I got bullied, which lead to bullying in high school till sophomore year. It was bad, got teased and chased all the time. I was praying to God that it would stop. Eventually it did, but I never stopped chasing myself. You live with those fears every day long after you were bullied. You become the biggest bully of all to yourself. It’s not fun. God, and it still happens to me every day. So…anyway, getting back to God.

I was diagnosed bipolar with psychotic features back in June of 2004. There was a build up of problems and it landed me in the psyche ward for the first time. It was there I prayed to God too, to help me get better and back on my feet.

God has blessed me with two beautiful children that are loving and honest and so wonderful in every way possible. God has blessed me with a rock solid marriage. My husband is amazingly good to me and our children.

I had several bipolar attacks after that. Oh, man, they were crazy, running in front of cars half naked and screaming, trying to jump from a 15th floor balcony, crashing our family car. Thank God no one got hurt. He was with me then, and He is with me now.

I got into writing because it was suggested by my doctor to write as a coping skill. Well, it ballooned from tiny little poems to full length novels. Some I’ve even gotten published. So many rejections though. Now I’m suffering even more because I’m setting the bar higher for myself and trying to get an agent.

I’ve written 4 novels after my last published novel back in 2014. So that was two years ago only, so not too long. Anyway, I’m praying really really hard to get through all the rejections, and you know what? It’s working. I’ve been writing another novel, I call it the “Dream Book” and I’m already at 20K words.

I’ve had physical problems and had surgeries. Had skin cancer growing in my shoulder. It was like this golf ball sized thing on my shoulder blade. Well they carved everything out. I had surgery on it twice. It’s all gone, thank God. See what I mean? He is always around.

I hope I’m not sounding preachy. I’m not asking you to believe in God. I’m only speaking of my own experience. I’m just really thankful in this point of the game. Bad things can happen. Horrible things. Devastating things.

But as long as you get through them, it’s gonna be okay.

Writing has gotten me through a lot of tough times. 

So write on my friends! Anything to get you motivated to write. Walk, read and maybe say a few little prayers here and there. It doesn’t have to be to God, just the beliefs you have in yourself. And as long as you believe in yourself, anything can happen. 

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